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THIS WILL BE MY PRIVATE BLOG.
Even though its not VERY private.
Uhwell.

Please see this video please. You will understand how lucky we are.

There's this boy, he was covered with blood.
When rescuers found him, and wanted to save him out, he told the rescuers. No, save my friends 1st. and indeed, there are 10 of them inside, and he was supporting them, despite his injury. and the rescuers save 10 of his friends, and he came out last, after everyone. Indeed a hero.

I sincerely salute him.

Another incident was a mother was found, kneeling down, pushing the debris of the buildings. below the mum, was her baby. Mum was dead. Baby still alive and kicking. When the rescuers bring the baby out, they realise in the blanket there's this handphone that says, "My dear, if you managed to live, remember that i love you." (sth liddat). Please people. how is it?

View the video below to understand more about our friends in China.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=GyvzzFF9G0I

Not a single soul will ever believe that my love for you was real.

Today was a school day.
WEATHER so hot ):

I was feeling so pissed off, just early in the morning, because I nearly couldn't wake up. Anyway people, I had a nightmare today.

A nightmare that I would only love to share with my dear readers,
i dreamt of him. ._. i think because i think too much about him already bah. haha. I dreamt of us back at that swing. Sweet memories, bitter present, sour future. I miss you. AHHH. ):
Hannah wants me to go for it, i don't want. Bitter.
Anyway,its been rather long since i really go out with bran. don't really wanna talk about out past memories already, since its already in the past. Then let it past. Although i'm like letting it hang there, not trying to do anything to this relationship that we both still possess. I know you love me, me too. but, its not the time yet.

OHYES, back to topic.
Intensive Chinese Programme I hate.
That Mdm Yong NEVER fails to make me sleep. A very good sleeping pill. I bet her husband thinks this way too. hahaha. And i wonder how her child can tolerate her. =/ Like seriously.
Sichuan Earthquake is getting worse and worse, more and more people dying each and everyday. Hey baby. Save the earth.

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Hey boy, you are one reason why am i still living now. Really. Strangers coming in, and out of my life. You came, and never once did left. Oh boy, I am soooo obsessed with you, yet I can do nothing to stop these things from happening. I don't want to continue loving you, but you left me with no choice. I always hope that I will see light at the end of the tunnel, or maybe, see you. But, you left me alone there. Struggling to find a way out. Ohwell, you left me alone once, im going to leave you there too. That would only be fair this way. Bran, forget me. So that i will be able to forget you. With you here, still lingering in my mind, i cannot accept anymore new guys, or new guy friends into my mind.
8months without a boyfriend. It is the greatest acheivement i ever had.
But yet, i need someone to pull me out of the crowd(like hannah). I need someone to help me out when i'm lost. I need someone to carry my things for me when I have not enough hands. I need someone to hold my hand, and support me. Boy, all these things, both of us can never do together. So please, take it as you are giving yourself a chance, or giving me a chance.
Please, forget me, and get out of my life. Im sorry to be so rude, but please, really. I really wanna try to forget you.
5years you left me unattended.
Boy, Continue doing the same thing. Live your own life, have a girlfriend who love you more than i used to do. Have a girlfriend who will love you with all her heart, unlike me. I'm nothing compared to you. If you are Heaven, Im hell. Even though you did SOMUCH things to me. SOMUCH that its totally uncountable. You know what i'm saying, so i'm not going to mention. Just like heaven and hell, so big difference, so far apart. This is us. Now do you understand? ):
Although i cant bear to part you too. This is a very painful decision made by me. I don't want to leave you too boy. but i cant. You know where you should go. Not with me, somewhere else. You are able to soar high, far.
Boy, for the last time. Last time I hope. (if i can ever stop saying this), i love you.
& it still pains to say this now, still. Like that day when i part with you.
Goodbye my love, goodbye my dear boy, goodbye.

& to let you know, if you ever doubt. My love for you is real.

Loves.

Vesak Day today.
& tomorrow will be back to intensive chinese periods. I hate.

This is the cakeeeeeeeeeeee.

My niece's door gift. (:

The Sunday Times (straits time) 18/5/08.

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Have been slogging real hard these days. Hoping for an A1 when i get back my chinese O level results in August. *prays hard.
I was home today. As usual, chinese allllll the way.
I want all A1s for all my subjects.

For myself,
& for my little gifts that i will be having.

1) 3D apple cake. 3kg-$230
2) Laptop. $2000
3) A treat from BenSng.
4) 18 Year old birthday Party.
5) $100 from Kailin.
6) Your one whole day accompany.

7) Who still wants to give me anything? (:

All those above, are actually my rewards if i manage to get 6points for O'levels, except point (3). I am really going to study so hard, 10 times harder than i did for N levels. I believe in putting hard work.
I don't wanna disappoint so many people pin their hopes on me.

Anyway,
Indonesia Sumatra Earthquake.

Earthquake Details * Magnitude 5.9
Coordinates of Epicentre 1.65° North 99.18° East
Estimated Depth 11.0 km
Location NORTHERN SUMATERA
Approximately 500km W of Singapore
250km S of Medan, Sumatra, Indonesia
Date/Time of detection 19 May 2008 at 10:26PM (Singapore Time)

I really think that the world is going to end soon.
Yanling says that she is going to bring a bottle of water to school everyday, and a packet of biscuit. She scared Earthquake might fall upon us anytime.

I really think so. Im afraid too. Thats why I'm trying to love my mum and dad more. I'm very very afraid that there's no more chance for me liao.
Please God, Save the world. No more casualties, no more deaths, no more injured. Please. No more. I don't want to be sad, I dont want to cry anymore. Please.

Hannah and Tzewen also, so many things happening. Hais.

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I saw him yesterday.
看见你的背影，仿佛是看见了从前的我们。
你对我说的话，我忘不了。

第一次，刚认识你的时候：
我们是多么多么的甜蜜，
记得在秋千上，我们大喊着自己的愿望。
我说：我要快乐。
你说：我要你做我的女朋友。

就这样，我们在一起了。
因为是第一个恋情，我一个人也没提过。

也所以，当我们分开的时候，
我也只能默默地承受。

昨天，看见你的时候，我差一点人不出来。
你变了，变成了另外一个人了。
我知道你已经变成了一个我真的爱的人，
我很感动，真的。
但是，我没有办法原谅你。
或许，你能说我已经原谅你了，但是，
是不能在一起了。

看见你的时候，
你给了我你最灿烂的笑容。
你走向前的时候，我看着你，笑了。
可是，我的心跳得很厉害。
不知怎么搞地，像是我们刚认识的那个时候。
我说：hello. 你好吗？
你说：我很好。你呢？
我说：过得比以前还要好。
你说：那就好。

其实，你不知道，
这些年，一点也不好过。

你说：上次跟你讲的东西，你记得吗？
我说：什么？忘记了。
你说：给我多一次机会好吗？

我愣住了。
我避开了那个问题。

我说：对不起，我要走了。妈妈要来了。
我便匆匆的离去。

你知道我的心是那么的痛吗。
我想，你是不晓得。
嗨。我爱你。

I cant bring myself to leave you for good. its still good to have you by my side lingering sometimes. I love you bran, I really do. if only time can turn back, will you ever disappoint me again? Will you leave me?
I hope the answer is No. Please say no. If I were to ever ask such a question in the future.
Bran, i love you.

//edited for niece birthday.

Was over at the condo's function room. Going crazy with cousins. Theres this pool table too! (: So cool. haha. We sang song chit chat play pool. Very fun! Xuanying's birthday.
GUESS WHAT. that piglet cake is SO cute please.

My neice :D

My neice and her father, my cousin whom i'm most proud of.

My cousin,wife,and neiceee. AHHH. so cute!
Anyway, that piglet on the table is a cake ok!
Its cost my cousin $230. LOL

Look at the crowd at the function room. This is only one corner of the big room ok.!

My 2 other cousins. HAHA. so funny hor.

Im so proud of them! My neice was made the baby of the month! OMG. (:
Will put up the picture on straits times tml. :D

The other kids that were over there as well.

Yes! 1 years old.

THE BUFFET. ALOT RIGHT!

((:

My uncle, auntie and familyyy

Happy birthday, Piglet :D

Today, went to kbox with hannah,esther and tze as usual. Had fun. Emo-ed here and there. Alot of vrey stupid happenings. After that went to the library. As usual, i couldn't REALLY study la. But i did. (: And yes. HAHA. arcade after that. Until mum called and tell me, we are going to payalebar already.

I went back to CCk to take the carr and went to paya lebar to have our late mother's day celebration with grandmother. The scenario was very funny. HAHAHA.
Grandma dont want eat, den kailin 'scolded' grandma. LOL. very very funny. (:

had fun,
oh yes. I just lost a customer. She said she cant trust me. Ohwell, ): count her unlucky. hahaha. cannot do business with me. :D

OK! loves.

Will blog about neice's birthday tomorrow;
and kbox outing tml (:

Nights.

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9 more days to Chinese O levels.

Today was mock test for chinese. The paper was kinda difficult la ):
I think i'm beginning to feel the stress for O levels, since its like so near. Zomg.
My midyear examination is so terribly done.
L1R4 - 31. Chinese was B3 for prelim. I hope that i can do better for Olevels, I want an A1. (:

Some people have been behaving very sarcastically. Be it languages, or everything, i find that person's words very sarcastic. I can't take it la. -.- Whatever, im just going to pawn you in my subjects. (:

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Went for basketball just now with Hannah, Esther and TzeWen as usual. (: I was emo-ing all the while la. because of ________. Ohwell. But yep we had fun.

Anyway, I did this quiz thing. HAHA. so funny please :D

Scorpio - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You're red hot passion makes anyone you date feel extremely wanted
Loyalty, to the point of doing anything to protect your lover
You are mysterious and charismatic - and you easily draw people in

Your negative traits:

You tend to be paranoid and think that the worst is going on with your lover
You turn cold and mean at the first sign of conflict in relationship
You sometimes become obsessed with dates - so much so that you develop jealousy early on

Your ideal partner:

Someone who will take the time to win you over. Not an easy task!
Is able to keep up with your carnal appetite... lots of stamina needed.
Reassures you of their love and loyalty on a daily basis.

Your dating style:

Intense. You prefer to stay in with take out and conversation - so that no one else is distracting you and your date.

Your seduction style:

Hot. New partners have trouble believing that your libido is for real.
You have incredible sexual intuition - you always know what your lover craves
A bit bossy. You know what you want, and you certainly aren't afraid to ask for it.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so secretive with your love - they want you the way you are
Let go of your jealousy. Your partner has chosen *you*
Spend more time alone, doing things you love. It will help you be less obsessive.

Best color to attract mate: Dark red

Best day for a date: Tuesday

You Are A Romantic Realist

You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.

Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.

And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...

But you'd never admit it to your friends!

nights (:

you know i couldn't forget you

and you use this type of method to make me even cannot forget you.

ohwells,

yes, i really cannot forget you but ya.

hais. you are the cause of my misery.

rawr.

ihateyou.