disintegrate

rate

I have just came across this song from a blog and it goes like this:

我想过一件事

不是坏的事

一直对自己坚持

爱情的意思

像风没有理由

轻轻吹着走

谁爱谁没有

所谓的对与错

不管时间

说着我们在一起有多坎坷

我不敢去证实

爱你两个字

不是对自己矜持

也不是讽刺

别人都在说我其实很无知

这样的感情被认定很放肆

我很不服

我还在想着那件事

如果你已经不能控制

每天想我一次

如果你因为我而诚实

如果你看我的电影

听我爱的CD

如果你能带我一起旅行

如果你决定跟随感觉

为爱勇敢一次

如果你说我们有彼此

如果你会开始相信

这般恋爱心情

如果你能给我如果的事

我只要你一件如果的事

我会奋不顾身地去爱你

♥ 我还爱你

Hello my dear,this song is dedicated t you.
I haven't tell you yet - tht i still love you.

HAHA.
Everyone asking me to update already. This few days have been quite busy about blogshop. hmm. ): Ask your friends to get contact lens from me ok? :D
its cheap. LOL.

okok, anyway.
HooRAYY TO KSS.
I no need to pay money for adam khoo workshop. WOOTS. :D
& the course will start next weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek. Im so happy!

& yes of cos, i will be home very late during that period of time, and etc etc. aaww ):
ohya. Ive started on a new game, cabalsea. PLAY WITH ME :D

take care.

HI EVERYONE.
life is good recently. yea. :)

anyway, i've open a blogshop.
HTTP://APPLE-XLOVE.BLOGSPOT.COM

take care look ya, and help me tell your friends abt it :D

I apologis for the inactiveness in blogging.
I have been busy doing my F&N coursework for the past few days. Will update once everything is back to normal. (:

takecares.

I have got totally NO idea of how my life is going to be, I couldn't predict. It's like, tomorrow will be so different from today, & I'm undecisive.

Maths or Chinese?
Go or Not go?
Sleep or Don't sleep?
Play or Don't play?
Think or Don't think?

I'm just so undecisive, & I don't know why.
Maybe I'm born to be like this, maybe..

It's because you confused me.

"A family is like a team - Together Everyone Acheive a same Mission"
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I am still doing my research on ~~dreams~~, so i will start on this topic first.
FAMILY

(Before that, I want to say that, I have added pictures on the outing yesterday. Its below this post. :) edited.)

I know about certain people with family problems, however, what caused all these?

Family is defined as "A group of blood related people, living under one roof." & this is how it goes.

I don't actually tell people that I'm from a problem free family, because I have my own reasons. I don't come from a family that is extremely free from problems. Be it, monetary, relationship or otherwise. Although from a 3rd person's point of view, my family might be one of the best family combination or something. However, I can tell you that the answer is not.

My mum wanted to give birth to only 2 children initially, however, in year 1998, my mum got pregnant. At that point of time, my 2nd sister was only 4. She was a young girl, who knew nothing of such. Until recently, my family became chaotic.
The moment someone stepped into the house, no matter, how much you tried to stop a 'war' from breaking out, it will still do. My 2nd sister, now a teenager like me, have been trying to tell me that my youngest sister IS a mistake. A mistake made by adults, that have caused us all to suffer.

"Don't you agree? She's really a mistake what. Born out into this world for what. Mum should have aborted her last time lor. Walao," these are the frequent screams that I have been hearing all along. Although I have been chiding my sister, but it just wouldn't stop her from saying those mean things. So what more can I say? Except keeping myself quiet at the corner of the room.

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According to professionals, avoiding quarrels and making sure that the family bonds together, is a very important.
Now, let teh-goodbyes.blogspot.com relates with you on:
HOW TO MAINTAIN GOOD

RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR FAMILY.

1. Listening as a way to help another person, sometimes called "cathartic" listening.
Listening is an exceedingly important type of communication between one person and another, and it involves the process of releasing emotions, sharing problems, as well as ventilating feelings. The positive actions that can be used to show empathy when one is releasing emotions, sharing problems or etc, is to do some actions that can show your concern towards him/her. The speaker invites you into his/her private world and there, you have to show that you are really with the person. How can you do that?
- By communicating in a non-verbal way. For example, a nod of the head, a smile or maybe, lifting your eyebrows, can indicate agreement.
- Basic verbal expressions. For example, "Uh-huh, Hmm, Ok, Really?!" not only able to show that you have been listening to the speaker, but also giving a form of encouragement to the speaker.
- Complax verbal expressions. For example, "What happen after that? What did he do to you?", these can give the speaker a good feeling, and the bond between both of you might be closer.

2. Don't look for people to blame, find solutions instead.
Don't use words like, "It's all your fault!" or "Its YOU!". Blaming others will not solve the problem, but it will worsen the situation. Therefore, when things go wrong, don't just look for someone to blame. Keep the family together and turn the effort towards finding a solution. In doing so, analyze the circumstances as well as the motivations of those involved, and take the action that is necessary to put the situation back on track.

3. Forgiveness.
The types of apologies that are most common in our lifes, however, it has very different meaning, though in the end, it still meant sorry.
i. "I'm sorry"
It is commonly used, and has different depths of sincerity depending on how you say them. It has lost its usage for serious occasions and it can be several times a day.
ii. "I apologize"
This, definitely has more significance, however if misused, problems will still not be resolved. For example, one day, a man wants to apologize to my secretary. He began his so-called apology, "You misunderstood me." This immediately led to an argument, because it implies that the secretary was at fault, and the situation grew worse than it was before. If he could rephrase what he meant, the situation might be different.It would also have called for a difference in attitude if man says, "I apologize. I did not make myself clear." One of the most gracious responses to an apology.
iii. "Please forgive me. I have offended you."
This is meant for a more serious occasion. For example, it would be definitely more appropriate to say, I know I hurt your feelings last night with the things I said about the dinner. I am truly sorry. Please forgive me." This sounds more sincere and will make your life easier.

4. Control your anger.
Sometimes, anger can serve as an eventful purpose. Especially when a person has something stuck in her craw, and anger is needed to let it all spill out. An exchange of emotions will come, and a follow up of rational. However, excessively getting angry is not a very good sign. It shows how much one feel for the relationship and it also depends on the ability to identify the problem and the willingness to change over.
"Anyone can become angry - that is easy. But to be angry at the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not easy."
-Aristotle

5. Praise
There are 3 types of praise in this society.
- The social compliment.
- Praise designed to build self-esteem, to motivate, and to help build character.
- Praise designed to build relationships and encourage cooperation.

For family, we fall into the 2nd and 3rd category.
Praise and appreciation are crucial in the development of our self-images and how we think and feel about ourselves. A good self-image not only affects a person's well-being, but it influences performance as well.
Praise forges bonds of mutual respect, especially in relationships in which people want to please and do for each other. An alternative to encouraging cooperation is the attempt to force or pressure individuals into taking the action you dictate. Definitely, by your superior power, you can make a 3-year-old do things, but you cannot make an adult do things. An adult has a choice of their own. He or she can quit the job, in one set of circumstances, or in another quit the relationship. When an adult quits a marriage, thats when divorce comes into the picture.

6. Expressing Gratitude
Expressing gratitude makes both person happy. Be it the giver, or receiver. Some words that were just supposed to be said, for the sake of saying, to another person, you do not know how much these words mean to her/him.

7. Bringing a bad news across, by using a considerate way.
Try to be as composed to yourself as much as you possibly can is an important requirement in presenting bad news to another person.

So now, with all the 7 tips in hand. Maintain a good relationship with your family members, because no matter what happen be it now or in the future, they will always be the ones by you. Cause they love you. You are blood related. and Blood is thicker then water :)

PS: I got this inspiration from, 'The 7HABITS of highly effective teens' HEH HEH, & mine's '7tips of maintaining healthy family relationship'. HAHAHA :)

Oh damn.
Liying is emo-ing again. =/

Goodbye.

I was out with Tanya today after such a long time. However the rained spoiled our mood. I was really into the mood of going out when the heavy rain came. Was pretty annoyed. Anyway, I bought a belt while shopping, and headed to the movies at Cineleisure. Watched Sky of Love, and ya, the show still brings sourness to my heart, and I cried a little.

Im going to sleep.
Tomorrow will be about dreams :)

[edited/march13]
Ohyes, went out with tanya and watched the sky of love. I can tell you that i'm in love with the sky too. :)
Anyway pictures time :)

Catch it! :D

We had chocolates, 1 for $1.25 ok. Not cheap. =/

ITS teh CHOCS :)

While waiting for the cinema hall to be open. I took this.

Me&Tanya

Me :)

Alright, chaos.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SWEETY. (:

Anyway, I'm so sorry that I did not take any pictures for blogging today, because the whole day is so hectic. & the beginning of the WHOLE day starts as early as 6am.

I woke up in the morning and went to my cousin's house to help out with her homecooked 'buffet' style. Ate plenty of things in the afternoon, and off i go with one of my cousin, to watch movie - The Leap Years.

Its an excellant movie and i really wonder why some people in the cinema say that its one of the worst movie they ever watched. Really don't understand them. -.- because i personally think that this storyline is very good. & interesting. :) Because, it really made me cry, alot, especially towards the ending.

I've learn alot in the movie.
One of them is "Never say Never". One should quit saying the word never, because it is something that puts you down. Someone who doesn't use the word, or hardly use the word 'never', is a winner - is a successor. Not using the word 'never', shows that you have already won half of the battle. Use never only for affirmations -
For example: "Never put off tomorrow what needs to be done today" or "Never ever give up"
But, don't use them to down grade oneself, or to postpone something off till a later date -
For example: "I never do these/that" or "Never do well for exams because I don't like my teacher..."
These are all excuses. =/ Not good. HAHA. (:

Ohya, the next thing i learn is:
"Its better to loved and lost, then to not loved at all." Even though this is may sound true. Some may think that it is definitely terrible if they were to leave their loved ones. But, I really think that, at least for me, personally, I think that, i would rather hold on to the believe that, at least, i still have him for once. At least, I was happy before. At least, I've grown up.

I'm mentioning all these because, most of the people that I know, is very unhappy about what they have been doing, and is very confused. They don't know which is the correct route to take, and where should they be heading to from today onwards. Should they continue what they are doing, or should they just leave their problems and do what they think will benefit them.

I'm talking from experience, I'm sure about that. So please, believe what I have to say. I might have undergone certain things that some of you haven. So, don't make yourself a victim for those bad guys and bad girls. :)

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Anyway, I just met another guy who gave all his money to his girlfriend to keep. HAHA. girls find such guys, and you are lucky :) I think that this type of guys means that they will really stay by you, since you are keeping all their money already. Hmm (:
Alright. I am going to sleep. Tomorrow is a school day for me, until 12pm. & shopping after that with my dearest Tanya. OK! Sleeping timee.

Also, Febuary29th is the day when Saint started the legend. This VERY day, guys cannot reject any girl's propose, or will get fined. :)

OHYA! One website to introduce, www.viwawa.com (:

nights :)

HI,

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TIANTIAN :D

Anyway, I'm at my cousin's house now, and yep. Not home yet. HAHA. I will blog when I'm home. So ya. Here's my reply to all your tags. :)

TAGS REPLY! :D
Tanya: LOL. yea, childish =X
Cang Ning: Thanks Hunny. :) You are a brave girl too. At least, the bravest I've seen so far.
TineX: HAHA. Thanks So Much sister
JunJie: You are strong. Really. I know that she knows, you love her. & this love will never change. At least for as long I know. And Friend, You are strong too. And I've seen a growth in you, from last time till now. You've grown. So, cheer up. I know you can overcome this obstacles. Friends are always here with you. At least, I am. :)
Hannah: LOL. I try luh. Because I got F&N coursework to hand in on Monday, and Im not available Tml, Fri and Sat. Im afraid.. =/

Alright. Update when I'm homeeee.
Take care peeeeps, and continue reading my blog ^^ (:

"Having memories is the best thing on Earth.
Because that's the thing that pieces you up to be like -
A human Being."- Liying
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HI!!
It has been raining for the past few hours, how are you guys feeling?
Be careful not to catch a cold. (:

Anyway, I have been thinking for the past 1hour, about my life in Primary and Secondary school. Which are the years that I would really want to get back, if given a chance to. & Im talking about it with KianLoong now. Lols.

Mine is, Primary 5, Sec 2 and 3.
KianLoong's is Sec 3.

And what About yours? :D

Memories are those moments in your life that really shape you into who you are. Maybe, into a positive, or into a negative way. It depends - really.

Ohyes, and. I was reminiscing about those memories with him. Haha. Times that we really got together. & I really think that fate is so, amazing. The fact that All of you, here looking at my blog, is fate. Fate brings us all together, and this is how all of us know each other.

Those memories will forever be kept in my life.

From the day I was born to the world. To knowing my godma. To moving house. To studying in Teckwhye Primary School. To knowing a bunch of wonderful schoolmates. To moving up to Primary 3. To getting into Speech And Drama. To moving up to Primary 4. To quarrelling with classmates. To moving up to Primary 5. To knowing true friend(: . To Primary 6. To knowing the BEST 2 teachers in the universe (Mr koh, Miss Joanne Chua). To taking PSLE. To moving on to different secondary schools. To getting into ELDDS. To having childish and innocent quarrels. To knowing a bunch of ELDDS monkeys. To start loving ELDDS. To Secondary 2. To knowing a bunch of greatest brothers. To playing basketball at the basketball court opposite school. To Secondary 3. To celebrating Valentines' at carpark. To dancing wildly. To singing crazily. To ELDDS camp. To being guardian angels. To using expired flours and bake muffins. To getting thrashings and scoldings. To separations. To demotion. To secondary 4. To a new class. To a new surrounding. To new teachers. To putting down all pride and ego. To remake friends. To knowing a bunch of sisters. To start learning well. To separations at the end of year. To secondary 5. To striving for tests. To badmouthing people. To scolding teachers together. Until now..

This is just the summary. If i were to say in details. I think it would take another 16years for me to relate them again.

My gratitudes for the past 16 years.

I thank GOD for letting me born in Singapore.
I thank GOD for giving me such wonderful parents.
I thank GOD for giving me such a wonderful life.
I thank GOD for giving me such wonderful friends.
I thank GOD for giving me so much love.
I thank GOD for giving me the tons of breakups to make me grow up.
I thank GOD for the different people who stepped on, and walked past me when I need someone to held me on.
I thank GOD too, for giving me my little angels, to hold on to me, when I'm just about to fall flat.
I thank GOD for giving me different opportunities to grow up.
I thank GOD for giving me such a good learning experience that will up to the day i lie in the coffin.
Thank GOD for the many many many things in life that were being showered upon me.
Thanks so much GOD, for being here.

A thousand word can't express the feeling that I'm having now. Life is just like a roller coaster ride. You don't know what is in front of you. Is it up, or down. Life is just so fantastic. & I strongly believe that it's GOD's way of making us all grow up. And thats how we start to mature.

ALSO! Like what I have just mentioned. Life is full of memories, and its pieced up into a jigsaw puzzle - tittled LIFE. Without a piece, we can never be perfect. And that's what we are made up of ---
MEMORIES

Enjoy! takecare & good night. :D

WENT TO CELEBRATE!
LITTLE COUSIN'S BIRTHDAY. :)
HAPPYYYY 4th BIRTHDAYY

AMANDA :D

Went to reminsce the past with the kids. LOL. my little cousins.
SO CUTE! ><

& of cause, the CAKE!
This cake worth $110 ok! Its D24 durian, with NO cream. WOOTS.

"Happy 4th birthday Amanda, Love mum and dad" WOOTS. :)

Birthday girl :D

Little cousins & my Sister. :)

"happy birthday to you.........."

THE CROWDDD!

& thats all folks. :D

goodnight.

Friends come and go.Leaving a footprint everytime.
But true friends come and stay. And be there whenever you need them.

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Friends act as a pillar of support whenever you need them. They come into your life, at different parts of your growing years.

Now i ask, do YOU treasure your friends.

Friends are just like the contractors for your house. For example:

A low grade contractor come and build a house - a stick house. A stick house can be blown down by the wind very easily and is unable to withstand natural disasters. This contractor do not have the heart to build up house for you. This reflects the type of friends you make. A low grade contractor are like Not-so-good friends. They do not put in effort to build up the friendship wth you. This results in the fragile friendship that will not be able to withstand obstacles. And they leave you when problem arises. Thus, this type of friendship are not true friends, and will not last.

A normal contractor, builds a house that is made up of planks and wood. Definitely, it is stronger than that of a stick house. It can withstand much natural disasters, but not all. Wooden houses can still collapse and it is absolutely as fragile as that of a stick house. Although it is made up of better resources. Just like normal friends. Normal friends just come and go. They might stay to help you in a way and another, but eventually, they will still leave.

& A high grade contractor, build buildings made up of cement and bricks. Those that will not be able to collapse as easy as the stick/wooden houses. Its just like true friends. True friends build a bond with you, that is unable to be broken down so easily. They overcome thousands of thunderstorms, lightnings, as well as sunny days with you. These friends are hard to come by. We have to treasure them.

Maybe, what I've just said doesn't make sense to you. But it does to me. I was bloghopping and landed on Cang Ning's blog that gave me this inspiration when she refer life as cars. Interesting.

Anyway, to those who have lost your love, or feel lost because of love. Here's something for you:
1. You can't hurry love, you just have to wait, love don't come easy. Its a game of give and take.

2.
--- Hannah.

3. Every relationship fails for a reason, cause ultimately theres a best one waiting at the end. Keep believing in love. Love never fails, so when it fails, you can be sure that, that's not love.

--- Hannah.

:) going for birthday celebration for little cousin.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA. :D

If somebody asks why, why i loved the way I did.
I'll answer that, both of us were authentic.
& That is my Only answer.

:) have a nice day ahead.

I Feel D:

Sometimes, i really wish thatmy life can be of something like - a balloon.Where wind can bring me to a faraway land, free from reality.

Reality seemed to give me a very big hit on my back, whenever I tried to escape from it. Life just seems to have lots and lots of surprises out there for me - especially whenever I'm not ready to see them, and they end up to be things that I don't want to know. And they just land on me, so sudden that I have no time, No time at all to find something to fall back on. As a result, time and again, I fell back on the hard ground with my head facing up. The landing often hurts.

Sometimes, I would plonk my albows on the table, and just stare blankly into space. And sometimes, I would just close my eyes, and make myself fall into deeeeeeep sleep, and often, I will open my eyes the next morning, and then the sunshine made me close them again. And sometimes, I will just sit at a secluded corner in my room, and cry to myself. Hoping that someone will hear them, and come to my rescue. Apparently, ~~no one does.~~

Without the slightest doubt, there is love in this world. But what worries me is
how to express it.

Sigh.

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But, friends are always here with me. People I specially would like to mention:

First on the list, TANYA HO.
Special thanks for always sticking by me this 10 years. 10 years without fail. & this proves that there is really true friendship in this world. We have been through so many things. From failing our Maths to getting A grades in primary school. Getting not bad grades and proceeding to our respective secondary school. And us, doing so many stupid things together. Having the same thoughts, Having the same polytechnic in mind, used to train our vocals together, getting crazy together, bad mouthing people together (HAHA) and so many moreeeee. Now that you have, and is going to proceed to a Polytechnic, and me, still stuck in Secondary school, I sincerely wish you all the best in your future life my dear friend. Even though we might not get into the same secondary school, i promise to work hard enough to get into the same polytechnic as you. And also, 10years of friendship is not enough okay. I wish to be able to sit with you in a coffeeshop, 50years down the road, reminscing our past life. Thanks My friend, best buddy, twin, teacher, darling and my always loveable tanya. :)

Second, Hannah Lee.
Thanks too, for being here with me for the past 5years. You have always been a special friend even though we might have alot of disagreements in the past, now that we have all grown up, and proceed on with life. I hope that the 5 years friendship, and the bond will not break. Thanks for being there whenever i need someone to cry to, and someone the go crazy with. I will never forget the crazy times that we had especially at the carpark. The 3 of us. Going crazy. As well as the most memorable Valentines Day that i had with you guys. This bond between us is so special that i know, and i can assure that God wants me to keep it tightly down in my heart. Hannah, special thanks. & good luck in your new school. And friends forever ok! :)

Third, Cang Ning.
Thanks for always being here whenever I need you to be. Anytime, any minute, when i call you, you will always be there to hear me out. Thanks cang ning. Having a friend like you is a bonus for me. I know that we might have some problems in the past, but those were childish acts when we were young. Thanks for also being my mentor, even though i know you will decline this position given to you. HAHA. But i have been putting you as a role modal since last year. A mentor like you who guide me through thick and thin made me grow older each day. Thanks hunny. I love you!

& Also, Special mention to Yarkam.
Thanks for being here when i need you to hear me out, and thanks for scolding all those bastards together with me whenever I confide in you. Even though we haven been friends for a long time. These memories are enough for me to bring out of Kranji. Thanks for also, always enlighten me when i seek help from you. Having a friend like you, who bears no hatred is important to me too! Remember to study hard for the coming O level ok? And we will go to the same polytechnic together. HAHA. :D

Sisters of 5B
Thanks for always bringing laughter and joy in my life, ever since i've been demoted to normal academic. All your presence made me feel not unwanted, and ya. Thanks so much.

I've understooded,

As long as people have friends to share their sadness, it becomes easier to
bear.

Thanks for all my little angels who have always been around me all this while, pulling me up when I fall, and have been through thick and thin with me. Thanks so much. Of course, there is alot of them whom i have yet mentioned. I will take time to name all of them out, and yes. Thanks so much, my little angels.

cheeros. :)

Sighh D:

Liying is not very happy today.
Life just seemed to move so fast.
And it moved away just in a flash.

Liying is from Planet MARS. I love wierd people, & love wierd doings. However, I disliked people like, for EXAMPLE Shixian.
I remember in the past, I used to like you alot. I use the word ' used to ' because, Its already in the past. Now I know, all that you have tried to do to me. Toying my feelings, Playing with me. HAHAHA. I thought that i was blind to love you then. LOL. Really blind. :)
Anyway, if you happen to read this post, which is like ALMOST impossible, then, HAHA. Please stop trying to hurt girls by playing with their feelings, when they really treated you with all their heart. Treat your girlf well okay, don't make her sad. Like how you used to treat me.
Somehow, i got to know alot of things that I wanted to know that time. Now I understand and will never ever go into the same path like how I used to again. I don't want to be called stupid or blind again. HAHA. Anyway, Byebye to you. I think I'll never talk to you again.

Actuaally, I got very angry after hearing all these, but nevertheless, i shall remain calm like how I got in the past. HAHA. Attempting suicide, and stuffs is not the method for me to settle relationships problems already. Anyway, I think I'm really stupid. D:

A lesson I will forever remember.

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On the lighter note, March holiday is finally here. I am so happy, yet, got afraid.
Happy, because i can have a week to rest, and catch up with studies.
Afraid, because this goes to show that O level is approaching.
HAHA. I don't really want to care so much about other stuffs already. Now i know studying SHALL be my priority, and will continue to be :D

Ohyea, Shery girl got injured when she went for a run today. Aww, and she suffered quite terrible injuries. She wanted to show me the pictures of her injuries but i declined. Should be very gross i suppose. HAHA. Anyway, she have to be wheelbounded for the entire March holiday, and its quite sad. D:

Well well anyway, I think that life had gotten me so far. 17 years I have been living in this world. I think that everyone have their purpose of living. As for me, I will appreciate my life very much, especially that i nearly lost my life due to the narrowing of my airway 2days ago. :)
Alright, I think I shall stop here, and stop ranting about my problems already.
I'm so going to make my holiday a fruitful one!

I have so many things to do!
- Holiday assignments
- Outing with Hannah&Tanya on Tuesday
- Wed history IP coaching
- Thurs chemistoy IP coaching
- Cousin's birthday party
- Going out shopping with sisters - F&N coursework
- Catching up with Maths and Physics!

WOW, so much things to fill my wholeeeee March holidays. :D
Alright, Have fun during your holidays. :D

Well well, I know that I'm so in love with you, but I just can't make it known. Too bad, maybe thats the only fate that we have. So ya. Heaven has our arrangements made. Let fate decide. My ~~beloved~~ friend.

cheeros,

HI, ITS ME!

I've finally seen the doctor, after yesterday night those terrible times.
If you guys don't know. I had a asthma attack yesterday, & luckily i didn't die. =/ Im serious. Because yesterday i really was gasping for breathe terribly and i slept sitting up. Because i can't breathe while i was sleeping. Yeps.

I got 5 TYPES OF MEDICINE TO EAT!!
Which is absoultely terrible, because thats the main reason as to why i didn't wanted to see the doctor! Because i hate those bitter medicines. ):
As terrible as it is, I told myself to recover fast, because i want to enjoy!

Argh, enough of my rantings.
On the lighter note, MARCH HOLIDAY IS APPROACHING!!
which means, i have more time to slack, BUT i still have to study luh. Studying have started to be my priority ever since I managed to get through N levels, and come to Secondary 5 where i rightfully should belong to. :) Im so glad i didn't take the other route to the ITE. Wheets.

Anyway, I really think that kids are getting more and more childish nowadays luh. Spamming blog is like, no life please. Omg la. -.-

Ohyes, i really have to emphasize the feeling in me, it is really terrible. ._. asthma sucks la. Why must i have such an illness. I don't blame my mum, although i know i got astham is because of her. ._.
Right, the story is this: When my mum gave birth to me, she had difficulties, because she got heart problem, thats why. So when she gave birth to me, i was diagnosed with asthma, due to her heart problem. & TADA! i got asthma. lols.

Ok la, tommorow is the last day for school, so yeps. definitely im going. HAHA. :D
So ya, i have alot of objectives for tommorrow, I must learn my vectors properly. because i've missed quite a few lessons already. Alright Alright. Take care people.

Cheers,

OHOHOH,
who's here.

IT'S LIYING THE SICK GIRL.

HEH HEHH!!

I have been doing some shitty stuffs in the computer lab, with a blardy lag computer, with EXTREMELY NOT fresh air.
& poor girl me have to stay in here for 1hour 15mins. ):

On the lighter note, im surfing the net, (as usual) and not doing what i'm supposed to do. HAHA. =x Well Well, you can't possibly ask me to sit infront the computer with the temptation of going to my blog, and stuffs, and DO my F&N right!!

Anyway, Mrs Chan is a not bad teacher la :)

HEHEHEH. This is what i'm feeling now, i suppose..
亲爱的,那不是爱情.

I will update on Junkai's pictures when i go home. HAHA. Caught him in action when we were web-cam - ing. :D

Ps. I can't bring myself to love you like this..

Although now, I still love you..

(/edited)
RAWR.
I have to retype what i had typed ):
thanks to blogger.

And as i was saying, i was chatting with some of my friends, and i realised that its the breaking up season. Many people were encounting breakups and so on, well i guess we all have to ignore such things and continue our life right. Dont be sad people, Stay Strong!! :D

Alright, time for the best show of today. LOL
PRESENTS JUNKAI -

ZI-LIANING WHILE WEB CAM-ING.

HEH HEH. Enjoy his smexy pictures. LOL, all caught off guarded except for 1. Anywayyyy, I have something to show you guys.

LOL PLEASE LOL.
Does that sign means that we can rob them before 11pm? LOL. =x

OK, thats the end of today, &
Christine is going to Thailand tomorrow.
BON VOYAGEE!! :)

Sometimes, being in love, still is the cure for everything, and every illness in this world.
Like me, I'm still yearning for your love.

sweet dreams.
wish me good health D:

I didn't attend school today. HAHA. because i haven recover from my illness, and in fact it got worse. Nevertheless, programmes still fill my day.

Especially when Im in love with a new movie now. The main character is so charming, especially when he smileeeeeeee. :D

Anyway, the show is call "lian kong" 恋空, you can watch it at www.tudou.com , and i'm VERY sure all of you will love it. Its a japanese show, so go catch it now!

OMG, so nice ^^

(/edited)
I've just finished watching it, and its AWESOME! I really love the show, every part, every scene is so detailed. Although its just a 2hour show, it really made me, and bring me into their world. OHMAN. i love this show.

guys, rated: 4.5/5

All of you must be wondering, where did the 0.5 mark go to.
BECAUSE, the show ended. ): also because, the show made me unable to breathe. As you all know im sick now, my nose is blocked. thats why, all the cryings made me unable to breathe normally. RAWR.

Ok la, im going to sleep now. Loves.
Catch that show!! :)

HAHH.
i finally fulfilled the promise i made to junkai, a week ago. LOL.
& yes.
iamsick
Hannah too! so get well soon. :)

Anyway, I might not be going to school tomorrow, cause the flu and cough is pretty bad, and i'm like sneezing and coughing like hell in front of the computer, covering a blanket, with the fan off.LOL. *imagine that.

ANYWAY! i think that i have to do some soul searching, as to what i told MISS HANNAH, She wants me to go to the doctors, which i don' t think I need them. I think i will recover on my own. :D
im cold

As promised,
this will be a long OVERDUED post to junkai. :)

When do i know this GOODY man over here?
Hmm, I know junkai for about a year already ba, when i just got together with his 'last time' good friend whom hanged out with him almost everyday. He added me on friendster 1st, then added me on msn, where we started to chat.
If you guys don't know, shixian was junkai's good friend in the past. Im not sure about now, but i'm sure they were best of friends in the past.

Obstacles?
Eh, not much to his side, but my side. Cos that time shixian keep telling me alot of bad things about junkai. Say things about him being a flirt, say Junkai snatch away all of his ex girlfriends. Of cause, i used to get blinded by his words, and did not asked and persue for verifications.
So, I did according to what Shixian wants me to do - not to talk to junkai so much.

So whenever junkai starts talking to me, i will go, " HEH! sorry, im busy. Talk to you someother day alright?" then i will close that window. FOR SURE.

However, when things started to worsen for me and shixian, junkai have been by my side, listening to me whenever i need him here. He will always be the guy in front of the com, telling me not to be sad, not to do foolish things for shixian. HAHA.
Because he's not worth it.
LOL.
i've gotten over him already lah. im just trying to be funny. :)

Where is he now?
Junkai went to TAIWANN.!! ):
& will only be back after a few months. Because he have to go there for NS lor. Stupid -.-

Message to Junkai?
HAOPENGYOU! take care of yourself hor.
Wait you come back we go lah kopi :D
You owe me chicken rice right! HAHA.
Don't try to run away! :D
When you come back we have long long long hours of phone talking ok? :)

misses

Alright, thats all folks. :D

OHYES!
pictures, before i forget :D

was at soul gardens few days ago!

ELDDS PERFORMING! @ scape youth park.

THATS ALL FOLKS!
SIGNING OFF,

x33

yesterday,
didn't blog because i went to soul gardens with Miss Tang, Cang Ning, Izzaty & Maverick.
Chatted alot of stuffs, and had a lot of fun.
Had alot of crappy and interesting topics. LOL
right guys? *you know we know
LOL

today,
i missed the aunnual roadrun. LOL.
those who went to soulgarden will know what i mean. :D
HEH HEH.
*inside joke.
LOL.
anyway, it was because of my swollen foot.
BLA BLA. ):
OHYA!
today was the performance of ELDDS members at the escape youth park. WOOTS :D
they did perfectly AWESOME.!
:D
enjoyed.

Anyway, im kinda lazy to post up the pictures, so i will do it all at a time tomorrow. :D
3 cheers,