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I Feel D:

Sometimes, i really wish thatmy life can be of something like - a balloon.Where wind can bring me to a faraway land, free from reality.

Reality seemed to give me a very big hit on my back, whenever I tried to escape from it. Life just seems to have lots and lots of surprises out there for me - especially whenever I'm not ready to see them, and they end up to be things that I don't want to know. And they just land on me, so sudden that I have no time, No time at all to find something to fall back on. As a result, time and again, I fell back on the hard ground with my head facing up. The landing often hurts.

Sometimes, I would plonk my albows on the table, and just stare blankly into space. And sometimes, I would just close my eyes, and make myself fall into deeeeeeep sleep, and often, I will open my eyes the next morning, and then the sunshine made me close them again. And sometimes, I will just sit at a secluded corner in my room, and cry to myself. Hoping that someone will hear them, and come to my rescue. Apparently, ~~no one does.~~

Without the slightest doubt, there is love in this world. But what worries me is
how to express it.

Sigh.

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But, friends are always here with me. People I specially would like to mention:

First on the list, TANYA HO.
Special thanks for always sticking by me this 10 years. 10 years without fail. & this proves that there is really true friendship in this world. We have been through so many things. From failing our Maths to getting A grades in primary school. Getting not bad grades and proceeding to our respective secondary school. And us, doing so many stupid things together. Having the same thoughts, Having the same polytechnic in mind, used to train our vocals together, getting crazy together, bad mouthing people together (HAHA) and so many moreeeee. Now that you have, and is going to proceed to a Polytechnic, and me, still stuck in Secondary school, I sincerely wish you all the best in your future life my dear friend. Even though we might not get into the same secondary school, i promise to work hard enough to get into the same polytechnic as you. And also, 10years of friendship is not enough okay. I wish to be able to sit with you in a coffeeshop, 50years down the road, reminscing our past life. Thanks My friend, best buddy, twin, teacher, darling and my always loveable tanya. :)

Second, Hannah Lee.
Thanks too, for being here with me for the past 5years. You have always been a special friend even though we might have alot of disagreements in the past, now that we have all grown up, and proceed on with life. I hope that the 5 years friendship, and the bond will not break. Thanks for being there whenever i need someone to cry to, and someone the go crazy with. I will never forget the crazy times that we had especially at the carpark. The 3 of us. Going crazy. As well as the most memorable Valentines Day that i had with you guys. This bond between us is so special that i know, and i can assure that God wants me to keep it tightly down in my heart. Hannah, special thanks. & good luck in your new school. And friends forever ok! :)

Third, Cang Ning.
Thanks for always being here whenever I need you to be. Anytime, any minute, when i call you, you will always be there to hear me out. Thanks cang ning. Having a friend like you is a bonus for me. I know that we might have some problems in the past, but those were childish acts when we were young. Thanks for also being my mentor, even though i know you will decline this position given to you. HAHA. But i have been putting you as a role modal since last year. A mentor like you who guide me through thick and thin made me grow older each day. Thanks hunny. I love you!

& Also, Special mention to Yarkam.
Thanks for being here when i need you to hear me out, and thanks for scolding all those bastards together with me whenever I confide in you. Even though we haven been friends for a long time. These memories are enough for me to bring out of Kranji. Thanks for also, always enlighten me when i seek help from you. Having a friend like you, who bears no hatred is important to me too! Remember to study hard for the coming O level ok? And we will go to the same polytechnic together. HAHA. :D

Sisters of 5B
Thanks for always bringing laughter and joy in my life, ever since i've been demoted to normal academic. All your presence made me feel not unwanted, and ya. Thanks so much.

I've understooded,

As long as people have friends to share their sadness, it becomes easier to
bear.

Thanks for all my little angels who have always been around me all this while, pulling me up when I fall, and have been through thick and thin with me. Thanks so much. Of course, there is alot of them whom i have yet mentioned. I will take time to name all of them out, and yes. Thanks so much, my little angels.

cheeros. :)